Isn't it supposed to get easier?

I thought the pain was supposed to get easier, but this is quite possibly the heaviest my heart has felt, and the most depressed I have felt in a long time. It will certainly be a hard night/few days. I just feel completely empty and lonely. I had to write something somewhere, and I figured this is the place I could write and noone would actually check. I hoped this would help, I guess we'll see. Ah losing someone you loved is hard.